the cowboy in me - aceypoo !

[ALAYNA MARTEN]

Hello everyone! Im Ace, or Shelby. lol. Shelbys my real name but Ive been going by Ace on here for years. Anyways I guess the reason you are reading this is to get to know a little bit more about me. Theres really nothing much to tell but I like talking about myself so thats what Im going to do. Hehe. Im pretty self explainatory. Redneck. All the way. Im a girl though. I like to make sure I look pretty for my fiance, I worry about what Im wearing and my hair, but overall Im definetely a tomboy redneck. Whenever I wear a dress my fiance, Kolby, is always like it just doesnt suit you. But he likes it either way. I dont really like to wear makeup much. It takes to long to put it on, too much of a hassle to take off and theres really no point when its just going to get sweated off in the first place. So I dont really bother much anymore, unless its a special occasion. Not to mention my makeup is all packed up. lol. Normally youll see me in a tank top, blue jeans and boots. Thats what Im more comfortable wearing, but ill wear shorts and flip flops to, depending on the mood im in that day. NEVER do I wear earrings. I tried to once and ended up repiercing my ear on accident, and yea didnt hurt but i got blood everywhere. I also have had my belly button pierced before. But it got caught on a leather on my saddle and got ripped out. NEVER again with that one. It bothers me when I dont wear necklaces or rings. I have a class ring and my engagement ring, and a necklace that my fiance gave me. His mom gave it to him so it holds a lot of meaning for him and therefor for me as well.

Im the type of person that most people dont like. I have a good personality, ive been told that Im really sweet, reliable and all that jazz. But. I have a devil streak. When I want something I try to plan it out and then I try my hardest to get it. And boy do I have a temper. Most of the time it takes a little but to get my temper out but when you do normally you will regret it. I know how to fight, I never start em, I just finish em. When it comes to my family and friends Im a little overprotective. IF someone is messing with my little cousin or any of my friends Im the first one to step in and say hey back off. I guess you could call me a sweet and caring person. I can be to the people I really care about. But im not a very patient person. Horses are about the only things that keep me calm. But somehow they even manage to press my buttons sometimes. Ive been able to control my temper the past year and its helped me a lot. Whenever one of my friends needs me Im always right there. My i guess soon to be step sister has called me a couple of times and Ive gone to get her out of a sticky mess. Im a friend that you would like to have. Even if its just to talk im always there. Keeping my own personal problems in check.

Kolby Lynn Kerr. I dont even know where to start. Hes one of the last decent guys out there, and hes a cowboy which is a big plus. Whenever Im with Kolby its like I dont see anything else, hes my whole world and I dont know what I would do without him. Kolby has helped me through a lot and I probably would not be here if it werent for him. Me and Kolby have pretty much almost the same personalities. Hes a smartalick, which is one of the things i like about him, and so am I. We could just sit there and bicker for hours on end about something stupid because we are both so darn stubborn. Unlike a good many of my friends Kolby actually makes me believe that I can do so much better with my life. Hes encouraging me to go to college so that I would have a good job. He believes in me when a good many people dont. When Im in Kolbys arms my whole world feels alright. I feel like nothing can touch me and he would be there to protect me. And boy I know he will, Kolby is known to be rather protective. I dont mind that at all though. I love the fact that he is so scared of loosing me hed do anything to protect me. Thats what guys are supposed to do. Kolby has no problem spending money on me, but he chews me out when I spend a little on him. Whenever I get up to a door by god Kolby will stop me and pull me back so that he could open the door for me. One of the good old fashioned guys. When I say I love this boy I really do mean it. My feelings for Kolby cannot be explained. So guess what im happily taken so BACK OFF!!

Kolby has done so much for me its not even funny. I have no way of repaying him. Though he has told me that hes only doing his job as the man who loves me. This past weekend I moved out of my house. Me and Kolby have been talking about it for awhile. Hes 19 and Im 17, we were planning on moving in with his parents. Which is where he lives now. He made all sorts of plans to take care of me and support me, because im still in school. But on Friday when my dad called,cussing and yelling at me, and I decided to move out right then I called Kolby. I said you need to come get me right now. He suggested that I stay the weekend with him, because my dad was on his way to MAKE me come home, so that my dad would not harrass my grandma and he wouldnt know where I was. Kolby was about an hour away, my dad only about 30min. Kolby managed to pull onto my grandmas street the second my dad pulled into the driveway. When I said I needed him Kolby hauled ass to make sure he could make it to me. It pissed him off that he only managed to get there seconds too late. He was there for me that whole night, until he had to go home, holding me and keeping me from having another panic attack. Hes asking his dad if we can move in, and also he wants to build a big shed and use it as a house. Well still be on his dads property but its a good start fo us right now. Yesterday when we went to go get my stuff my dad was being a dick. I called Kolby in the house and Kolby threatoned my dad within an inch of his life to get him to back away from me. Just the fact that hes been there for me through all of this, and still thinks im worth it shows me how much he loves me. I would only hope Im up to par.

Other than Kolby and those in my family that Im close to I concider my horses my besties! My own personal horse is Blackjack. I guess you could call him the grumpy old man. Hes a 16.1 Quarter Horse gelding, some people call him black but I call him a dark bay. Hes really a big ol teddy bear, but he has some problems. My grandpa had him for over two years because at the time I had nowhere to keep him. Somehow he rolled and got his foot caught in the fence, almost completely severing his left back foot at the coronet band. So he was out for a year on that injury. Then hes having problems with his right front let. His hooves are just have problems. I can ride him but not too hard, I try to keep his feet dry and cleaned out. Were going to move him to Kolbys backyard so it will be eay to take care of him when hes close by. Though Blackjack certainly is an old character. When hes in the paddock he runs around, rolls and sometimes bucks, but when you put a halter on him and he knows hes going to get ridden he starts limping around. He knows that seems to keep him out of a heavy workout. But I watch him real close like to make sure nothing is wrong with him. Blackjack just adores me though. Even though he doesnt like my grandpa or Kolby much. Im the only one that can catch him without problems, he plays around with everyone else. And he loves playing with my face with my kissers. Whenever I need him I run to my grandpas house and he lets me bury my face in his neck.

Blaze is Kolbys horse but he really is a sweetheart. Ive known him to just stand there and let a little boy run all around his legs and underneath his belly. For some unknown reason Blaze loves playing with my boobs with his lil kissers. He stands for the farrier just fine and just completely adores Kolby. Right now we are keeping him at my grandpas house so we can redo the backyard for both horses and when we pulled up the other day Blaze just perked up as if to say DADDY! lol. We have quite a few problems with him though. Im not sure but we think he has allergies in the summer because he scratches himself constently, rubbing his hair completely off, and giving himself blisters. We give him medicated baths almost everyday but sometimes he gets better and other times he doesnt. He also has bad foot problems. His hoof wall isnt developed like it should be. Kolbys boss had him and didnt really take care of him properly so now we are trying to play catch up. We are keeping shoes on his feet now to try and get his hooves to grow properly. He needs to be ridden quite a bit and reminded what it is he is supposed to do. He has to be kinda tired for Kolby to get on him without any problems. And because im the "precious cargo" Kolby doesnt let me ride him. Doesnt want me getting hurt. psh.

I dont exactly have what you would call the greatest family in the world. One side is mainly alcoholics and druggies while the other side are anal pricks. Before I could say that I was very close knit with my family. But me and my dad have never really had the relationship that we have needed. Ever since he has joined the army he expects me to follow every rule and be obedient to a t. Lets face it no one is perfect. So me and my dad pretty much dont have a relationship at all. The past five years weve been living with his parents, nana and papa. This past weekend I decided to move out. My dad called me yelling at me, and cussing at me all because i decided to stay at my other grandmas for fathers day. He ended up trying to come and get me, so I called the cops and told him I was not going home. He scared me so bad I just about had a heart attack. A daughter should not be afraid or hate her father. Because of all that, there are two sides to every story, my dad pretty much put a void between me and everyone else in that side of the family. Except for a select few that was talking to me when it all happened and knew what was going on. So that pretty much sucks. I had a really good relationship with Nana and Papa until now.

Now the other side of my family is the complete opposite. The mainly consist of my mom, whom i do not speak to, dont know where she is, my grandma, my little brother, my aunt, little cousin, whos in the pic with me, my papa a few cousins, and a couple of aunts and uncles. Thats pretty small compared to my other side. I feel more connected to this side of the family because they are all pretty much crazy rednecks. We rodeo and do all sorts of things together. Since Ive been living with my dad though hes been keeping me away from them as much as possible. My grandma has shared custody of me, id see her every other weekend, and if I asked for so much as one night extra at her house my dad would get all pissy. So im more than happy to stick with this side of the family, because I love this side so much. Now it may take awhile for me to get reacquinted with them but it should be no problemo. This side of the family definetely isnt anal, not perfect by any means and has been through it all. So naturally they let me be who I want to be. And doesnt try to change me. So I like them the best.

Have any questions at all feel free to ask. I aint shy